Butterfly Heaven

Saturday, October 24, 2009

yes...i admit it's finally my first post in don't know how many months. Maybe i should take the time to talk about what has happened to me, since a post a day can't really explain myself. I'll start with the happy things, then the unhappy ones.

so yes, baby and me, still going smoothly...i hope we will never break up, because i will feel really really sad, honestly. On a cab to SNYO rehearsal today, was just thinking about baby, and my requirements for my ideal boyfriend, that i had discussed with Heng2 at Macs during our secondary school days.

My ideal boyfriend:

1) Must at least 175cm

2) Must at least be 7/10 rating. =X

3) Kind/loyal/sincere/loving

4) Hopefully to play basketball (because i like basketball players, i don't know why but that was what i was thinking then)

That's all that i remember. And then looking at baby, hahaha...he fits all the requirements. =X Haha...i don't know, maybe you might think that i was making this up, but no. Anyway, we're almost into our 1st year anniversary, thinking of getting him a present then. Feel free to drop any suggestions. =)

Ok, so enough of about baby and me. Let's talk about school. I'm finally in Year 2 Sem 2, and it's quite a stressful semester for me (not sure about my other classmates though). I hope to do well in this semester, because i want to pull up my GPA, and hopefully pursue my studies after i graduate from SP. New faces to see in CIS department and new student assistants as well. I brought me back to the day when i started my first day as being a student assistant at T14, and the first person i met was er....Wai Keong (OMG now) and Raymond, and Steven. A few weeks later, came to know Fahmi, and some others i can't remember. But yeah, thanks to them, especially my shi fu, Li Jie, i have finally expanded my knowledge in IT skills though it wasn't a lot to handle very complicated stuffs.

Currently still no CCA in SP, so i'll just skip to my class. School just started, so most people are still in holiday mood. However, projects have started to pour in, and we have 12 projects to deal this semester, 6 due in week 6 this term, and the other 6 due next term. Well, i just feel that some people just don't understand that the projects are very important, and some are not starting on them yet. Anyway, i've started on UCCD (Understanding Cross Cultural Diversity) project with Janice. We paired due to some misunderstanding, otherwise i felt 100% sure she wanted to partner some other people. Oh well. Anyway, today we went to visit St Andrew's Cathedral to learn about the faith and their services there. Need to make a 2nd trip back as we couldn't get inside the church due to a wedding ceremony.

So yeah, things in class has not changed much. I viewed some photos on facebook, and of course, i'm feeling a bit saddened about why i'm so left out by my class. Just on a side note, i really feel very sad, and i wanted to cry out many times, whenever the teacher asked us to form groups for project. I knew i was not invited to any of their groups, nobody wanted to accept me. For me, i really don't understand why, but from what i heard, they always find me very busy. I really hope to clear up the misunderstanding that i'm not busy, it's just that you either caught me on the wrong day, or i have to go for rehearsal/class/work. Most of the time is really when i have to go for rehearsals/class/work, because those are already scheduled dates that i can't skip. But when i'm free, they are not, and conflicts happen. So when can we come to a compromise? Is there a way to turn around the whole situation? Can we all continue to be friends, and not despise one another? Can we just all live through our poly life in harmony and enjoyment? We don't have much time, and if we don't clear up this misunderstanding, nothing good is going to come out of it. I really hope you guys can accept me for who i am, like how i have accepted for who you are. Humans are imperfect, but we can always make up for our differences, it is just when you want to do it, and how.

That's all i guess...

signing off

saddened dappy

butterfly heaven
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