Smiley on Heng Yue's hand...heh! :)
Saw this on one of the TKGS bus on the way to Singapore Conference Hall.. LOL!
My present from gek... :D The small keychain got 1 LOVE word inside de..from Wei Jie.. XD
My bday cake... XD
My belated celebration at Kbox Marina Square! :D
Heh...tim taking pic.. 
Da Group (in pic): Zhi Han, Jian Hao (hiding in jacket), Tim, Aaron, Edward, Wee Ong, Gavilan
Not in pic: Ray, Hanwen, Rainald, Marcus, Ah ma(kiong tai), gek and mie!
ANYBODY I MISSED OUT???? >.<
butterfly heaven
10:31 PM
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Hmm...last sat went to SCH for rehearsal. I hate the sound quality there...not very nice. ARgh...nvm.
Today is tuesday ler...today de geog elective nvr study. Sure fail le...haha. Tml sec 1s coming for band practice ler... So stress on mi. XD Muz give briefing...=.=
OKie la...finally managed to transfer pics to my com. So now can upload ler.. yays! :D Tml then i post the pics if got time. Got the global warming movie...lol!
butterfly heaven
11:02 PM
Friday, January 26, 2007
anyway...today band practice was quite ok lar. Ms Sia dunno suddenly so nice to mi?? XD Tried the french cut reed today...the M one. Last time lao shi give mi try i try ler dun really like too thin...but is very nice to play lor. Ms Sia say she bring the S one come...lol.
Ah well...bloody hell i forgot the tuner AGAIN! So tml i'm bringing my own tuner. Haiz..why i so forgetful sia. Argh!!!
Zzzzz..mummy scolding mi go slp. Hmm..tml band report 7am sia! So early!
gtg ler...nitezzz...
butterfly heaven
11:43 PM
Last night i slpt at 8.15. Lao shi call mi at 10.37...tell mi cannot have class on sunday!! T.T but i happy..lol. XD
ah well...i'm hungry!!!! T.T i wan mum mum...$10 for 3 days. Siao ar... XD
butterfly heaven
10:20 AM
Thursday, January 25, 2007
learnt this phrase from tarot reading...quite cool. XD But really...since i created this situation that i am in, i have to solve it myself...i noe i'm choosing the wrong way to solve it...but i have to do it that way.
To seal my memory of that 1 person...is better than to seal the memories of many friends. It's entirely on 1 person...so it's wrong to involve those that are not involved.
My choice is made up...i hope to be happy again.
P.s. to those who noe whom i'm referring to...dun mention that name EVER AGAIN! Thx....
butterfly heaven
5:59 PM
So sad...tonight dun have TO, coz miss yeo is sick. Dun get to see my frens ar...so sad.
Ah well...today was quite good... :D
oh ya..couldn't post pics...coz my hp dunno why la..cannot send the pics to my pc! T.T
Off to maple... XD
butterfly heaven
3:00 PM
However...to mi, having not knowing the truth hurts mi more than when i know about it. Having my feelings being fooled with...i wasted so much time. So i'm happy that i finally know the truth...and shall move on with my life. Very happy about it...although subconsciously, i might feel sad...i dunno.
But this truth has finally marked the end of my problems...it was the root of the problem. I had known that a secret was kept from mi...somehow i know it will be leaked out soon. So waiting wasn't so bad...but it was too long a time to wait.
Ah well...sometimes we can't control fate. If we're meant to be...then it will be. We can't force each other.
Gotta go to school now....DAMN LATE!! >.<
butterfly heaven
6:34 AM
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
Come to think of it... i wish everyday was like this!!! Hmm..
Today was talking to Crystal and Fiona at bubble tea shop about the new taste of guys now...lol! Damn funny...then we saw a 2 girls from CCHMS...sitting outside the lan room drinking bubble tea.
LOL! Their boyfriends inside the lan room play dota...lol! Then pang seh the gers outside...so bad la!
Then on the way back to school...was talking about valentine's day. So sad...crystal got asked out...fiona is confirm going out ler...mi leh...band day, then nobody pei wo oso. So sad!! T.T every year like this de...so lonely.
Ah well...gotta rush homework sia. see yas...shall post pics lata when free.... :D
butterfly heaven
8:42 PM
Monday, January 22, 2007
The time now is 6.21am...and i hope that i would be able to finish typing. There's much to type, but it's hard to say...i dunno how to phrase them.
Let's first start with my life:
It's been quite havoc recently...having mixed feelings almost everyday, my mind was going to burst anytime. Given false hopes...of which i din believe...that reading i did saved me. I was at crossroads...and i have ALWAYS been at crossroads...but they weren't as difficult as this. Instead of 2...i have more choices! How am i to choose??
My feelings for certain people...i show it, and i mean it. Of course...it's up to you to believe...that these actions are subconscious...i myself don't noe wad i'm doing... To me it looks innocent...perhaps to others...is a different opinion.
So i decided to turn the clock back time....to when i was a normal school girl...alone...and nvr had any trustable frens. It was hard to come to that decision...i had been thinking about it for a very very long time...to those who noes about my headache, u finally noe wad's been in my mind...
I wanna start life anew...if we're fated to know each other...we will meet again somehow...and i believe we will...as long as we all believe. I have to seal this part of memories at the bottom of my heart...it will break the hearts of a lot of ppl i treasure... but maybe it won't. Negative thoughts comes to my mind...everytime i think about wad others think of mi...i'm not confident about myself...
So i wanna change....to be better. A new direction to come to mi soon...crying doesn't help with wad's done...i don't wan to cry anymore. I wanna be happy...and i don't wan to be alone anymore. I hope to reunite with the ppl i love...especially certain someones...of which have to be sealed up in my heart till the time is ripe to release.
My heart hurts a lot...and my uniform is getting wet. I noe i am being unreasonable to myself and probably to many others....but i have really have no more choices to choose.....unless u let mi disappear from ur life....or i will disappear myself....
This will be the end of my posts...time is 6.40am. And life will start anew from here.....i hope.............
butterfly heaven
10:40 PM
i'll blog another day...
butterfly heaven
3:40 PM
Thursday, January 18, 2007
After that came back to school 6.30pm ler..then Alexa and Kelly come tell mi about wad happen in band...Haiz...oh well...wad can i do? zzzz...
ah well...some pics i took at Pulau Semakau.. :D
Singapore from Pulau Semakau... :D
See that little island??? Is Pulau Jong...damn small!!! LOL!
Heh...jamie and fiona doing BOLLYWOOD! LOL!
The northsouth part of Pulau Semakau... :D
The sea...can see the waves? So nice... XD
from left: Jamie (chewing bubble gum), fiona, mi, desiree, gek teng and denise. :D
Argh...forgot wad it's called.
Mushrooms...LOL!
The map of Pulau Semakau Landfill!
Cell 3... :D not yet used de...lol! See the 3 holes? That's where they drain the water from the sea...
The cell...lol! 
The used cell...or waste cell. They put 30cm of earth on top of the waste...now become bird the nestling grounds liddat...lol.
These are the old mangroves grown since last time... 
These mangroves were replanted after the reclamation... :D
THE ASHES!! 
The ashes of waste area...lol! Forgot the name of the building ler..
The road.... lol.
The sea...that's Amanda! :D
Pulau Semakau...lol.
on the boat on the way to Pulau Semakau... can see Singapore! 
The boat ride... :D Nice waters..
The guide, Edward "the Man"...lol. 
from left: Jia Ying, Denise, Jamie, Desiree, Fiona and Gek Teng...i'm not in the pic, coz i was the one who took the pic.. :P
butterfly heaven
1:30 PM
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
going to eat sushi... :D
butterfly heaven
2:37 PM
Today de SS CA din even study...just wrote a lot for question 1a on Singapore's deterrence strategy. 1b suks la...about UN! Wad do i noe of UN...dunno then anyhow write..
Did a few readings today...readings wasn't so bad. Best one was i asking 1 question...then Mrs Begam came in...then talking about us o lvl. Then i was thinking about myself la (the question wasn't about myself...zzz) then i chose my cards...then...sian...came out and everything was about myself...>.<>
Afternoon had E maths CA...big screw up la. zzz...spirit and mind not there...lost 9 marks ler. haiz...
oh well...shall blog again...soon...
butterfly heaven
8:30 AM
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Hmm...ok la, gtg ler. byebye...
butterfly heaven
9:58 PM
Ytd a bit mood swing on tim... SRY! Din mean to ar..not feeling well...today whole day head pain. Haiz...too many things to think about.
Oh well...tml got SS Ca...i plan to fail. Coz i always do...how to study. i oso dunno. Then still got E maths CA...hope that goes well. >.<
ok la...gtg ler. Buais...
butterfly heaven
12:37 PM
Monday, January 15, 2007
Doggie at a pet shop near my school..hehehe! 
This cat is FAT!!! 
Heh..miko's tired. >.<
MIKO!!!! Jean's doggie..
heh...so pro these ppl. XD
Cool hor... hahaa...
Anime @ Expo...hahaha. 
My family! :D
My sis and ken... :D
My sis bday cake again.. :D
My sis's bday cake...so small! LOL!
Presenting...THE WHITE CYCLONE! 
My section at Nagoya Superland! XD After we sat the White Cyclone! :D
-censored pic-
i look ugly...so din post. but u wan to see the pic tell mi. :P It's Clarinet SLs of KHS and TKGSSB
-censored pic-
1st clarinets! Katakura High School and TKGSSB! wan pic tell mi. :D
butterfly heaven
10:50 AM
Monday, January 08, 2007
ah well...suppose to go do my A maths and E maths homework...both due tomorrow siaz. Haiz...dunno why they muz give. Some more the tests are based on those two homework...T.T
k la...gtg le. Sian...
butterfly heaven
6:05 AM
Sunday, January 07, 2007
Oh well...ytd band wasn't so bad, i think miss sia forgot whether i came on last friday. LOL! Hmm...then liddat lor. Today band pract...somebody kenna kick out of band (won't say who), then jia yun's ABL post kenna on hold..haiz. Sec 4 le...miss sia so strict. Oh well...gotta come for band now sia...until SYF is over...
tonight resumes chinese tuition...sian. Last week start..but i din noe. So i missed it..lol.
K la..gtg ler. So sian... T.T
butterfly heaven
5:58 AM
Thursday, January 04, 2007
Hmm...first thing in the morning is go to hall for assembly. Then got principal's address. Got Ms Lui and Mr John as our FMs. So suay? haiz...
anyway...had FM session almost whole day, except got cohort briefing before recess, and talk about school rules before sch dismiss...lol.
Afternoon leh...went to Tampines mall with Heng yue and gek teng. Tiffany joined us later...coz she got some dental. We shop at popular...then i bought stationary. Sch bookshop the queue damn long...
oh well...gtg now. Still got homework haven't finish sia... T.T
butterfly heaven
2:55 PM
Monday, January 01, 2007
New year resolutions for 2007!
1) To maple LESS and study MORE!
2) To practise more on my clarinet!
3) To slim down!
heehee...plus the other 2 i wrote. So...i guess that's all.
Today went to my ah ma house eat lunch...then fell asleep on the sofa while watching tv. Then evening went to Auntie Margaret's house for dinner..."Popiah party" as usual...lol! Then was playing with Miko.. :D Then played a few round of mahjong before countdown...so sian, din win anything...feng shui not good i guess.
Ah well...i'm still hungry...gonna go eat. Bubbuai! :D
butterfly heaven
6:20 PM