What is the true meaning of friends??? Somebody who will stand by you, speak up for you, help you during your worst times etc. In a true friendship, DIFFERENCES DOES NOT MATTER! Take my father for example...he had good friends, and the friendship has lasted for 33 years...and 1 had lasted for 37 years...how do these friendships stay?? They have accepted each other's differences...he had a tiff with one, and didn't talk to him for 2 years straight...after that they talked things out and became best friends all the way until now...
Anyway...yes, gek, i know i am being disliked, but i can't do anything about it can i? No matter how hard i try to change, it just won't change. Not that i don't want to change, but what's the point in doing it when it DOESN'T WORK???!!!! You always say i must learn i must learn, but have you thought how hard is it?? You also haven't learn have you?! You say (indirectly) that i don't put in my best effort..but do you know how hard i try?? You think i like getting posted to 1st??? You think i want to?? I admit! I used to have that desire...but, after getting into TO, i realised that no matter whether you are 1st, 2nd or 3rd, it doesn't matter...why do think my life in 3rds became better? I try to offer my help, and people think it's I SO. I can't do anything right? THAT'S the main reason why people don't like me...you can't look at people that way, it's wrong...when people offer help, let them help. What if one day you need desperate help, and nobody wants to help you because when they help you you think they are SO?
I hope you would choose to understand me better. Whether or not you want or don't want, at least make an effort to do so. OBS was different, because i know you would do something rash...i rather make myself look bad then letting my friends look bad in front of others. I cherish my friends more than i cherish myself. I hope you understand this...it's me.
butterfly heaven
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